Love is useless.

I’ve never been the kind of girl to be good with her emotions. I’ve only ever been good with being in toxic relationships, I was never really happy in my youth. Even now I have my moments of pain. I write poems to take my pain and form it into words. So that way that you, the person reading it, would understand my pain even if you’ve never experienced it. Here is a poem I wrote, I dedicate it to the person it's about.

I’ve always been the moon,

that’s always how it’s been,

down to the name and fair skin.

I’ve always wanted a sun to shine my way,

a knight in shining armor,

to light my surface,

to make me full.

I always wished upon a dead star,

for my wishes to come true.

you came disguised.

wearing a blindfold over your eyes.

I could only assume you were the sun.

you kept the act,

a beautiful butterfly,

enough to make my heart melt.

I didn’t mean to fall in love,

but I did it anyway.

you didn’t love me and I knew that,

I was hoping for something,

that was never to happen.

I wished you’d love me so,

love me as I love you.

I sacrificed stuff for you,

you never asked me to.

I gave you everything you wanted,

you never asked me to.

I was too giving,

to caring,

to wishful.

the magnificence I had created,

wasn’t really you,

just the part of you that would reach for me

when you were lonely and bored.

I’m your plaything.

a rag doll to play.

you need me when others don’t want you.

when other friends of yours grow single.

you told me you loved me then left to her,

the chance you first got.

God, how am I such a fool,

to fall in love with another moon,

someone who wasn’t as bright as I thought,

and hoped.